It is trauma, he said
And made is sound as if it was all normal
But it wasn’t
Not to me
Not just then
I wear my watch 24/7, no exclusions
My watch is my lifeline
It keeps me sane
My ticking clock
Crowds no longer attract me
I avoid them like the plague
I used to be the fastest walker
Now I saunter
Watching them all steer clear of my stroll
Makes me candidate to a potential fall
And I can’t run away
Loud sounds, are shivers down my spine
Music on low or not at all
When I don’t know what’s coming
Silence is my only bearing
I never had that magical moment
Where time stood still
And all was mute
That trick of the mind
Closing-up to adjust, to cope
I’ve never been at that centre space
Where there was nothing, but prolonged time
Before the storm took hold
Instead I fell into raging sounds of breaking
And watched it all revolve
And pain, oh God the pain
I never lost it
Everything kept coming
And it still unfolds
So I wear my watch 24/7, no exclusions
My watch is my lifeline
It keeps me sane
My ticking clock
My beating heart
I am alive
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